Pieces of me

I am snob. I am indifferent. I am finicky. I will not be shocked if people will have these first impressions on me and if it’s the first time they meet or see me. I may look like one, but when people get to know more of me, I am really the opposite. I am a friendly person who’s concerned to others especially to the people close to me. I am an outgoing person who always wants to discover and explore new and interesting things especially if they are intriguing and inviting me a lot. I want to meet and know more people and to expand my web of friends. Sometimes, I don’t know if I exaggerate my friendliness because I talk to almost everyone even to strangers and my Mother would usually reprimand me for that.

Moreover, I always try to be active by involving myself to such activities which I believe would help me to know myself more, meet new and different people and to develop my skills, personality and potentials. I’m into theater- acting and dancing- but dancing is one my most active passions which I also considered as an obsession. I was a member of our school’s theater guild back in my elementary and high school days. Now that I am in college, my passion for theater still continues. I am now an officer in our school’s theater guild who helps in improving our organization (Sining Tanghalan) and guides the younger batch in our organization. I am also a member of Youth for Christ both in our community in Cavite and in our school campus. Being an YFC really brought a huge impact in my life especially in being the kind of person I am right now. However, sometimes, I just feel unworthy for my sinful words, deeds and thoughts because in YFC, we are committed and convicted to such dogmas. What I always do is just lift them up to my prayers, learn from them and realize that nobody is perfect in this world.
Though I have the tendency to be too worrisome, I think that trait of mine is somehow helpful for me because I can contemplate (more or less) on the consequences that might occur… and that what makes me worried especially when it starts to bother me. I am pretty lucky to have patient friends who can extend their composure in listening to all my worries.
When it comes to ambitions and dreams, I have a lot to say. I want to be in a corporate world, in a media/ production team or in a non- government organization which advocates towards the development of the marginalized sector. If ever I will work in a corporate world or in a media/ production team, I still want to be a member and an advocate of a NGO that campaign for the conservation of the environment. My mother would ask me why I always want to be involved in a NGO, I would always tell her I really want to. I don’t know. I can’t explain why I want to be an advocate. There’s something inside me that hungers and thirsts for it. Maybe that is one purpose in my life that I have to accomplish. I’ll see. We’ll see.

Also, being the eldest among the four children our parents, I want to help my mother (who is now a single mother) in sending my sister and brothers to school. I visualize myself someday giving them their allowance (but not everyday), buying things for them, for my mother and for our house. I also see myself having my own car and own house (but of course! Everyone loves to have their own too…)

But like what I mentioned earlier, I’ll see. We’ll see. I think and I believe that I have to know what I really want so that I know how to achieve my ambitions and dreams. Dedication, hard- work, passion, faith, trust and discipline- seems difficult for me to have them all at the same time but I believe that these are the traits that I should possess in achieving my dreams and ambitions. Good luck to me!

These are only some pieces of me, my personality, my characteristics, my being, myself.